Not alone

It's a really comforting thing, knowing that you aren't alone. That you aren't the only one who thinks a certain thing, or a certain way. That you aren't the only one that experiences certain things. A warm glow flows over you when you realize it. A knowing smile overwhelms you. A sense of belonging creeps in. You are not alone.

Over and Over Again

Never really thought that I would get to this today,
I really didn't know if I should say what I should say
But i got this feeling that you're feeling all these things I want to show
I put it in a song to let you know.

Think I like you and if u got some time to spear I was,thinking we could fall in love
I want to let in,are you willing to catch my fall if I happen to just fall for u
My love for you grows stronger everyday so much deeper, so crazy in ways I can't explain
I've been waiting for the day to call you mine
I was thinking we could fall in Love

Chorus:
Do what you want as long as you're with me
Say what u want as long as I hear u calling my name over and over again
Oh take what you want as long as u take me
Love me for real I promise you'll hear me calling you're name Over and Over again

I'm just searching, searching for the truth
All I know is My heart belongs to u
I'm not in this just to for the honeymoon
But all the way ay ay ay

Do what you want as long as you're with me
Say what u want as long as I hear u calling my name over and over again
oh take what you want as long as u take me
Love me for real I promise you'll hear me calling you're name Over and Over again

Bridge
I know I'm falling and I just might never get up, so I guess I will be here to stay
You're breaking my walls and you're taking my heart there's nothing I can do but fall apart for you and baby that's cool


Do what you want as long as you're with me
Say what u want as long as I hear u calling my name over and over again
Oh take what you want as long as u take me
Love me for real I promise you'll hear me calling you're name Over and Over and over and over and over and over again[do what you want]and over again
[say what u want]calling my name
over and over again]
Take what you want as long as u with me
Love me for real as long as i hear you calling you're name Over and Over again.

- Tami Chynn

Cult

The natural thing to do after resigning from one's job and giving away [almost] all one's savings must be to join a cult. I wonder which the latest ones are.

So I've always had trouble doing things I didn't understand. And if it's all meaningless then it doesn't make a difference if I do it for 1 year, or 40. Or not at all. Besides. At some point you'll end up doing a Phil Hartman, or a Robin Cook. Nobody can escape it. Nobody did [well, there was Enock but he was really tight with the man with the power]. Even the "best" there was. Nobody will. All the stuff you did/had ceases to be of use to you. One's soon forgotten and the world goes on. What makes it worth while is stuff that is left behind. Some contribution you made to some other person's life. Big or small. I especially like the small. Me isn't so important.

For a conservative guy, I do some crazy stuff. Or is that for a crazy guy I do some conservative stuff.

Do it now

Sounds like a marketing slogan. It is actually. But it's also what's on my mind right now. So my procrastination skills are legendary. My life has been characterized by it. I'll often say to myself something like "Starting next Monday...". Of course next Monday comes and goes. Sometimes, I'll still have the same conviction to do whatever as the time I proclaimed it. Most of the time I won't. So after a while, I'll make the same proclamation, this time with even more conviction and determination. Start over.

But. I was thinking. If I'm really convinced about something or really want to do something [as I always tell myself I am], I'll not wait for next Monday, for an apparently auspicious start. I'll do it now. It sure is a test of the commitment you apparently have, because it tends not to be easy, especially for a chronic procrastinator.

Better safe than exciting

I always was conservative. Leaning towards stable, known, safe options rather spontaneous, wild, exciting ones. Driven primarily by fear. Fear of the unknown. Sure, once in a while I would do something out of the ordinary, but even then it was never anything "crazy". But apparently safe is boring. I remember a chic telling me once that I'd make a good husband. Yeah. Not the most flattering thing I heard that day for sure. But I'm mostly content with that side of me. Sometimes I think I play it too safe. Perhaps I'll try to get out of the comfort zone just a little bit. See how that goes.

Fallen Soldiers

[Intro:]
Yeah... Woaah Oh Dis Is For My soldiers...
Real Real Soldiers Yeah!

[Chorus:]
Dis Is For My Fallen Soldiers
We Miss You Although You Gone
We With You Gone Pon Di Battle Field
Life IS So F***king Real

Dis Is For My Fallen Soldiers
We Miss You Although You Gone
We With You Gone Pon Di Battle Field
Life IS So F***king Real

[Verse 1:]
As A Likkle Yute Used 2 Hang Out Pon Di Corner
Me and Di Whole Ah mi Friend Dem We Ah Bun Some Marijuana
Although Nuff Ah We Never Grow Up Wid No Fahda
Still We Haffi Try We Best Mek It Cross De Border
But Some Bwoy True Dem Big Like How Hulk Hogan
Come Ah Chat Tell Dem We Nuh Listen Slogan
We Prefer Dead Before We Tek Program
We Nuh Grow Wrong... No We Nuh Grow Wrong

[Chorus:]
Dis Is For My Fallen Sodier
We Miss You Although You Gone
We With You Gone Pon Di Battle Field
Life IS So F***king Real

Dis Is For My Fallen Soldier
We Miss You Although You Gone
We With You Gone Pon Di Battle Field
Life IS So F***king Real

[Verse 2:]
Ah Nuff Ah Dem Nuh Like We
Dem Kno Dem Wrong And Still Ah Tek It Fight We
Kill Off Me Friend And Think Me Tek It Lightly
Ah De Whole Ah Unnuh Bwoy Me A Pree
Ah! We Nuh Want No More Funeral No More Burial
Stop Behaving Like Wild Animals
Get More Spiritual Get More Biblical Or Go Tek A Wash Off Ova De Mineral
You Save Yah Soul You Save Yah Self
While You Rest In Peace
So Tell Jah Jah
We Need Some Help Fi Trample The Beast

[CHORUS]

- Demarco


You were beautiful, Kate.