If I ruled the world

Imagine that.

But I don't. Don't have control over most things even. Another telling revelation. And it's not a bad thing necessarily. Makes you let go of things. Things you've always known deep down that you can't control anyway. Well, maybe not always, and maybe sometimes even deep deep down you thought different. But revelations by their nature are revealing. In some way. Sometimes it's seeing something in a different light. Sometimes it's a better understanding. Sometimes it's acceptance. That sets you free. So I don't rule the world. Gives me the opportunity to concentrate on other things. When that burden is no longer on my shoulder. Gives me the licence to live.

Brave heart

That is the way to live. With a brave heart. Brave mind. Look whatever comes in the eye. Face it without fear.

A month and something

It did feel good while it lasted. A reminder of what can be. A reminder that it can be.

But it can go just as easily and mysteriously as it came. And you're back to tearing at movies. You wake up one morning and your heart feels like lead. It's a battle to get out of bed. A struggle to eat. A fight to talk. Back to square 10. Better than square 1 at least.